Ok, I know I have not posted any new journals in a while and I kinda wanna tell this story about my problems.

On Spring Break, Child Protective Services unexpectedly showed up at my house questioning about how the family runs and contained very poor results. My parents are not teaching me life skills, my mom is unreasonable, horrible, constantly screaming in rage and clearly the WORST mother I've ever had. My dad treats me like a child and he does not sit down with me to talk life skills. Remember when I went to the hospital 2 years ago because of suicide thoughts? The family will never change, mom's still being a horrible person to withstand, dad's still being childish and giddy and cares more about himself than me... I feel so unprotected against mom's wrath. You will NEVER ever like my parents. I'll be stuck in hell until I'm 18 and I want to try my best to be independent when I move out and do my active roles and jobs and never rely on my parents again...

Thanks a lot for listening.

Please guys, Do not do anything to get me in trouble with CPS again and DO not call them, I will do something about it myself and handle things on my own, thanks. just don't do anything ok? Just hope and pray for the best.

and did I ever tell you guys that mom also FORCES me to do sports EVERY FUCKING SUMMER? I fucking hate sports, and I'm forced to do a sport that I don't like and I hold one hell of a grudge against that... because she wants me to be "active" and all that shit... I hope I would get a summer job instead.